Bible study yesterday caused me to stop and think hard. The question made my hands tremble and my heart pause. What happens when we learn to use everything—the good and the bad—for the glory of God?

Remember how Jesus said, “my yoke is easy and my burden is light”?

I’m learning, friends, I’m learning.

Right now, today, my heaviest burden is infertility.

I carry it day after day after day—and some days it is heavy and presses down and tears me up and the sorrows build and crest. Some days  I fall slave to the sorrow and cry, “Oh, God, why me? I want/I long/I deserve…” Some days the burden presses and oxygen is snatched from my lungs.

But then. Oh, dear friends…

Then is the change.

Then comes the morning when I awake and recognize God as all-powerful, all-glorious, all. The days when my heart says, “Oh, Lord, let my infertility bring you glory.” And my shoes slip off and my feet touch holy ground and my spirit dances free. 

Those are the days that my burden is light. It cannot hold me down or back. It cannot steal my joy or my laughter. There is nothing that can weigh me down because it is all– every. last. thing. for His glory.

And everyday I decide.

Everyday I choose to glorify myself or glorify my God. 

Pain is hard. Bad things are hard. But am I willing to surrender and say, “It’s for your glory, my God” ?

I’m learning to stop cursing the pain. I’m learning to surrender my desires. But the greatest thing I can learn is to glorify God with every aspect of my life. It matters not whether it is good or bad. All that matters is that my fingers point back to Him.

Oh, God, break the idols I build. Tear down the high places in my heart and force me to bow my knee to You alone. 

That burden that is pressing you down? That fear that is crawling the walls of your heart? That sorrow that is scraping you raw? Oh, dear ones, let us learn to surrender them to be used for His glory.

For He is

ALL

and we are not.