I’m going to be honest with you, when I was walking through the hardest parts of my journey there were very few books that were helpful. It might be partly my personality, but well put together words didn’t mean much to me when nothing in my life was put together at all. I still read books though, because that’s what I do. And surprisingly enough, I have found some books through the years that … [Read more...] about 5 Books for Your Hardest Season
I've been asking God the same question for almost a dozen years. Am I ever going to have a baby? Every time I ask, I'm hoping He'll change His answer. I'm not necessarily demanding a "yes", I'm just hoping for a definitive response. Yes or no is fine. Anything except the "wait and see" that I've been carrying all this time. Isn't this the hardest answer from the Lord? Wait. Just … [Read more...] about How to Survive when God says, “Wait.”
I'm a fairly sensitive person. I say "fairly" because I don't always come off as sensitive. It often looks like I am okay, but deep down? I wound easily and have a hard time processing hard things. Because of this, I have a tendency to look ahead to try and prepare myself for painful things. I want to protect my heart from needless wounds, so I try to put on some armor before the … [Read more...] about How Do I Protect My Heart From Infertility?
I guess we could blame it on the radishes. After all, I was out in the garden weeding them when the thought hit me. I could go for a walk. I understand if that sounds a bit elementary to you, but let's look at the full picture: for almost a year I was basically a prisoner in my own home. Yes, that's an extreme way of putting it, but if you talk to anyone who has dealt with exorbitant … [Read more...] about Your Story Isn’t Over Yet
Fifteen years ago I became an aunt for the first time. There aren't even words for how excited I was when I arrived home from college for Christmas break and swept that tiny month-old bundle of nephew into my arms. I basically only let him go long enough for his mama to nurse him, and then commandeered him the rest of the time. For the entire two weeks I was home. And no, I'm pretty sure … [Read more...] about When You’re 99.8% Okay.
It’s been over a decade now. A decade of wondering and hoping and praying that God will heal my body and allow it to conceive, carry, and deliver a child. I’ve watched Him move on the behalf of others. I’ve heard the stories of miracles, of friends and relatives who went 7, 10, 15, even 20 years and then brought home a baby. “It’s still possible,” I would whisper to myself. “Even if the … [Read more...] about Is God Big Enough to Give Me A Baby?