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  1. Thank you for sharing this with us! I’m struggling to understand how my infertility can be for the furthering of the gospel… any further thoughts?

    1. Thanks, Amanda.

      I understand the struggle at a deep level. ❤️ I don’t feel like there is anything that “fixes” the pain of this type of thing (much like nothing “fixed” the years Paul spent in chains) but I do believe that God does good work through the sorrow– filled parts of life.

      Part of my goal when I started this blog was to share about the ways God brings redemption to pain, and specifically, in my life, how He has redeemed my infertility.

      He has been good, but it’s been hard. That said, I have seen Him work. Our adopted children wouldn’t be here without the pain (that’s a whole miraculous story in itself!), and there have been many glimpses of how God has worked through our story to allow us to share the gospel.

      There is nothing simple or easy about it though.

      I do, however, believe that God hears when we ask Him to reveal Himself, and in fact, that is what He especially longs to do!

      So I encourage you to pray. To ask God to show Himself and His work in your life. I truly believe He will be faithful to do exactly that.

      Also, I don’t mind talking on a deeper level about this subject and if you would like that
      , just drop me an email. ([email protected])

      Blessings to you!

  2. I thank God for you, Natasha. I pray that God will grant you peace while waiting and hoping. God bless you

  3. I desire an apartment but I live at home and with people. It is not my desire but what I have come to know is God is bigger than my hope. Life is bigger than my greatest desire. It is good to hope but I’ve wasted a lot of time wishing to be somewhere else that I’ve missed so much time now. What if God gives me a place way later than expected will I only be happy when I get. Will it ever matter then. No I can’t wait for my circumstances to change because truth is even if He graciously decides to give me that thing there may be something else to long for. But scripture says it’s good to finally get our desire but I have to live now as well

    1. Absolutely. This is what Paul was talking about when he said, I have learned to be content with plenty and when in want.

      He learned to rejoice with or without, and he found that God was good in both places.

      Praying you experience the blessings of God’s presence, with or without. ❤️❤️

  4. Thank you so much for writing this! This is exactly what I struggle with after 13 years of a debilitating chronic illness. I deeply desire healing, freedom from being housebound & dependant, to be married & have children and even a home of my own! None of it could happen without a miracle but I know & have faith God could heal me in an instant & fulfil all of my deepest desires. On the other hand I also know that He hasn’t ever promised me any of that. I find it hard to explain this tension to other people but you managed to express my thoughts so clearly! I love this line –

    “So the ache has just simmered inside me. This hope that blazes and dies according to cycles and dreams and every change in my body or environment.”

    I know the ache well! I know the desperate prayers for answers, for a word or a sign to give me hope or to tell me to let go of my dreams. Thank you for the reminder to hope in the Word & the things God HAS promised me instead of being discouraged.

    Psalm 13 has been with me all week. I hope it will encourage you as it has me. May we also go from saying “How long O, Lord? Will you forget me forever?” (v1) to “I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation” (v5) when we cry out to the Lord.

    1. Oh, Miriam, thank you so much for this encouragement. Psalm 13 will be the place I turn to today. ❤️ Praying that the Lord is so, so near you as you journey through this hard, my friend.

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