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  1. This good for my soul today, Natasha. I have been asking the same question recently in the midst of this childless struggle.

  2. Wow, this really touched me. Thank you for sharing! I had a molar pregnancy in June 2013. In October, my year of waiting was up, but we have no health insurance, so I patiently await the day God provides us a job with health insurance or tells us to go ahead and try. The struggle is so tough for me when I see people with a new baby or pregnancy. Over the holidays, I met up with two friends from high school. One, my best friend for the last 22+ years, who had been struggling with infertility for several years, announced that she was 18 weeks pregnant. Overjoyed! I was absolutely overjoyed! Both because she will be receiving a sweet baby and because I could finally feel happy for someone again. It was a turning point in my healing…for about 30 minutes until our other friend showed up, who has always said she didn’t want children, didn’t want anything to do with children, and only been married a few months and had an “oops.”…20 week pregnant. It was all I could do not to scream and cry “WHY GOD?!? WHY?!?” right then and there. I don’t understand what the Lord is doing. I don’t understand why He is making us wait. But I do know that He is good and the Lord works for those who love Him.

    Thanks again for sharing (and letting me vent on your blog!!)! <3

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Oh, friend. I know those moments! Both the good (being able to rejoice with a friend) and the hard. I don’t know all the reasons either– and we may never know here on earth. But you’re right– He is good. And He is working good for you. <3 <3

  3. So often I feel like you are voicing the very questions that have been on my heart. Thank you for the reminder that are hope and reward is not in anything on this earth, but in Christ and the glory to come.

  4. Found you through Naturally Knocked Up. I’m glad I did. This post brought such perspective and was a needed reminder. I’ve added you to my Google Reader and am looking forward to following along. Many blessings.

    1. So glad it was able to bless you! 🙂 Thanks.

  5. Morning,
    I’m still catching up on my reading… 🙂 GREAT question, I have asked this many times. God’s Spirit has prompted it to be asked, I believe. “Was it possible to love the created more than the Creator?” I will let God’s sovereignty and perfect love for me help me rest right there today. Thank you girl! ~ Blessings out to you, Amy

    1. Isn’t it shocking how many things we place over Him? How thankful I am for a God who whispers truth into my patterns of sin. <3

  6. Interestingly, I have had similar thoughts about this myself. The pregnancy that absolutely KILLED me at first has now turned into a blessing, because I can now watch this child so my friend can have a break, and I can have a turn even if only for a little while. It’s a bit ironic, and not at all how I expected it to turn out, but in a weird way it works. It helps.

    1. Isn’t it wonderful how blessings show up in the strangest places?

  7. Coming from the other side of the tracks, I can only imagine what it would be like to be in your shoes. But the one thing that jumps out at me is that while you may not have your own children, you are still being a “mother”, an influence and an example to the children you do have in your life. You are doing everything that a mother would do with her children. And they do “belong” to you when they are with you. The amount of quality time that you spend with them is probably more than most mother’s get to spend on a good day. What a precious, precious gift you are to those children and to the mothers that you help. 🙂 Beautiful post!

    1. Thank you, Mindy. 🙂 I am indeed blessed to have the chance to mother these little ones.

  8. Elisabeth says:

    Oh Natasha, such a *sweet* bitter thing! I am in awe of the way His answers are so unexpected, yet so right. I think I have to ponder this awhile in my situation as well. Hugs to you!

    1. Isn’t it amazing how He does that? Slips right in and blesses in the middle of pain. I find it breathtaking. <3

  9. Oh, tash, my heart needed to be reminded of this today. Thanks.

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