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  1. My husband and I left our comfortable, familiar life just over one year ago to minister in a remote part of Alaska. We went thinking it would be our final move and we would spend the rest of our lives ministering to the people of the far north, but God’s plans were different than we thought. Circumstances required us to return home to NY and we have been struggling ever since – – unemployed, getting further & further behind financially, without a church home, simply not knowing where or what He wants for us. Am I willing to go to the utter depths of poverty to follow Him? Is my comfort and peace more important than the kingdom work He is doing in our hearts? These are sobering questions I have been asking myself lately. And quite frankly, I’m not sure I can answer them the way I know deep down I should…

    Thanks for this reminder, Natasha, that my life is not about me living the American dream. Even if it is a painful reminder…

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Have you read the book Everything by Mary Demuth? I am just finishing it and have found such comfort in her words about “perceived failure”.

      When we came back from Haiti the first time, it felt like such a failure… and then we came home with $22 in our pocket and $4,000 worth of bills due by the end of the month. No kidding.

      Yet, I know God better and I know God more and I’m haunted by the thought what if our failure was really God being made strong in weakness– just like He promise He would be?

      And what if His strength being shown isn’t actually my pain being taken away? (because, honestly, that’s what I want it to be.)

      I, too, have lots of questions and not many answers… but I somehow know- deep down- that it is worth it for the sake of Christ.

      I will be in daily prayer for you.

      p.s. where in Alaska did you go? And where in New York are you now?

  2. Beautiful story Natasha… and both great books sitting right here on my shelf! Keep seeking Him sister. ~ Love, Amy

  3. “Let’s live like He’s worth something? Because He is.” Such truth to chew on today. Thanks, Natasha.

  4. I will get these based on your suggestion! It is fascinating how we have made ourselves to comfortable in our ministering. We’ve lost our boldness and hidden behind our comfort.

  5. Yay, I read the first two books and have been wanting I read the next two. Thank you for the review and inspiration!

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Actually, Katie, I’m pretty sure these are excerpts from the first two? Just like a condensed version. 🙂

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