Last summer I was walking down the dirt road behind our farm and for the first time in years felt like I had something more to say about infertility than what I originally wrote in Pain Redeemed. I went home, opened a new document, and began writing like crazy. Everything poured out in a rapid, deep offering. After a decade of infertility, there was a lot of stuff I wanted to say—and I finally … [Read more...] about The Christian Woman’s Guide to Infertility (a blog series)
I'm a fairly sensitive person.I say "fairly" because I don't always come off as sensitive. It often looks like I am okay, but deep down? I wound easily and have a hard time processing hard things.Because of this, I have a tendency to look ahead to try and prepare myself for painful things. I want to protect my heart from needless wounds, so I try to put on some armor before the … [Read more...] about How Do I Protect My Heart From Infertility?
It’s been over a decade now.A decade of wondering and hoping and praying that God will heal my body and allow it to conceive, carry, and deliver a child. I’ve watched Him move on the behalf of others. I’ve heard the stories of miracles, of friends and relatives who went 7, 10, 15, even 20 years and then brought home a baby. “It’s still possible,” I would whisper to myself. “Even if the … [Read more...] about Is God Big Enough to Give Me A Baby?
The wilderness seems like a place of want, but it’s actually a place of plenty-- if you know where to look.I learned this the hard way--with hunger and raving thirst clawing, dropping me to my knees in surrender.Just like the Israelites learned to know God in the wilderness, I also met Him there in a new way. The wilderness-loss that I carried was named infertility and, like all types of … [Read more...] about You can Survive the Wilderness of Infertility
It’s been over a decade now that infertility has marked my life.Long before we brought our adopted children home, I faced off with infertility. I crawled to the feet of Jesus, begging Him to break the hold this agony had on me. I wrote Pain Redeemed from the middle of that place and I chose to declare Jesus the winner. Today and for good.Yet, there is a paradox in the Christian faith. It’s … [Read more...] about How to Wage War on the Lies of Infertility
I still remember the wild fear that rushed through me.The way everything slowed and my heart raced and instinct took over.There is no way I would have had the gumption to take on a two thousand pound mama cow who was charging—except for one small detail: my daughter was on the wrong side of the gate.I doubt I have ever moved that fast in my life, but the straw bale I had been carrying … [Read more...] about She was good, so God gave her babies.