<< This article is part of a blog series titled The Christian Woman's Guide to Infertility: Finding Hope and Healing even without a Baby. >> Infertility Doesn't Define Me As a child, were you ever asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Yeah, me too. Some may have struggled to pick an answer but I had mine down pat by the time I was six years old. I wanted to … [Read more...] about Infertility Doesn’t Define Me
Last summer I was walking down the dirt road behind our farm and for the first time in years felt like I had something more to say about infertility than what I originally wrote in Pain Redeemed. I went home, opened a new document, and began writing like crazy. Everything poured out in a rapid, deep offering. After a decade of infertility, there was a lot of stuff I wanted to say—and I finally … [Read more...] about The Christian Woman’s Guide to Infertility (a blog series)
I'm a fairly sensitive person. I say "fairly" because I don't always come off as sensitive. It often looks like I am okay, but deep down? I wound easily and have a hard time processing hard things. Because of this, I have a tendency to look ahead to try and prepare myself for painful things. I want to protect my heart from needless wounds, so I try to put on some armor before the … [Read more...] about How Do I Protect My Heart From Infertility?
It’s been over a decade now. A decade of wondering and hoping and praying that God will heal my body and allow it to conceive, carry, and deliver a child. I’ve watched Him move on the behalf of others. I’ve heard the stories of miracles, of friends and relatives who went 7, 10, 15, even 20 years and then brought home a baby. “It’s still possible,” I would whisper to myself. “Even if the … [Read more...] about Is God Big Enough to Give Me A Baby?
The wilderness seems like a place of want, but it’s actually a place of plenty-- if you know where to look. I learned this the hard way--with hunger and raving thirst clawing, dropping me to my knees in surrender. Just like the Israelites learned to know God in the wilderness, I also met Him there in a new way. The wilderness-loss that I carried was named infertility and, like all types of … [Read more...] about You can Survive the Wilderness of Infertility
It’s been over a decade now that infertility has marked my life. Long before we brought our adopted children home, I faced off with infertility. I crawled to the feet of Jesus, begging Him to break the hold this agony had on me. I wrote Pain Redeemed from the middle of that place and I chose to declare Jesus the winner. Today and for good. Yet, there is a paradox in the Christian faith. It’s … [Read more...] about How to Wage War on the Lies of Infertility