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  1. Dear Natasha, I’ve come to your blog just two times with this one, I don’t know which blog brought me to yours, but I’m moved by your story and very inspired by your faith and dependance on God, I praise Him that is able to appease your heart in the midst of storms.
    I haven’t read all of what you have shared here so I apologize if I’m ignoring some things that you probably already wrote about the condition of your infertility, I just wanted to tell you about TCOYF it is a Fertility awareness program. TCOYF stands for Taking Care Of Your Fertility and its also the name of a book that explains richly the natural method of charting your cycles and knowing when your body is fertile or infertile depending on the point that you are in your cycle. This is the method that my husband and I use for family planning, it is all natural and is based on knowing the signals that your body gives you about your fertility. Again, I don’t know, you may be already familiar with all this information and I might just be telling you an old story. If not, you might want to check the website and get the book that its very enlightening about women’s cycles and fertility:

    Much love In Christ,

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Thank you, dear, for this information! I am always on the look out for more ideas and resources about infertility. Even if they don’t pertain to me personally, I often receive questions from others.

  2. It’s not silly. Seeing the beauty in the simple things of life, that are life, that bring life…that’s not silly at all. I don’t know the heartache of infertility but I sure do know what heartache looks like. Hopes and dreams that seem out of reach, if not shattered, and I hurt for you. Please hold on to those little things and see Him there.

    Let the rain fall and bring life!

  3. Aww, hon, I can’t even imagine… I really can’t. I can pray though. And better yet, I can ask Millen to pray! I’ll show her your picture and tell her what’s going on in your life and believe you me, that girl will pray for you every single night♥ Sometimes just knowing someone is really praying for you is enough to get you through the night.:)

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Wish I could send hugs and kisses through the internet. 🙂

  4. My whole community has been praying for rain for a week. We want that sound so bad. The few green flowers in my flowerbed give me hope that we’re going to make it.

  5. fullherlife says:

    Beautiful Natasha! What a refining process you’re going through. Sisterly love from Maine, Amy

  6. Beautiful, sad, and true. And I understand about the rain – we get a lot of rain here, and when it’s sunny for a long time, and then the rain comes back, I feel a bit saved by it, too.

  7. I think honesty is saving me, and maybe you too? This post is so beautifully transparent. Such a difficult journey to walk.

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Thank you. <3

  8. This was beautiful. The rain is an amazing thing. One of my favorite cd’s is one called Jazz for a Rainy Day, and I love playing it on days like that, with the house quiet, and drink a cup of tea with a book….that all happens very infrequently! But it’s so nice when it does.

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Ooh, tea and a book. That sounds deliciously peaceful.

  9. I have found that talking about infertility is difficult because it is hard to put into words the gravity of the loss. With physical death, we are able to identify the person’s strengths, quirks, and all other things we love about him or her. Infertility, in my opinion, seems to be the death of what could have been…as if we are saying goodbye to a child who may never be born. I know the struggle is so far-reaching and it impacts us in physical, emotional, and spiritual ways. Thank you for this honest and raw account of what you are going through, and for your resilience in the Lord. Bless you-

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Thank you for this. I have to remember to give myself time to grieve (over and over) because in a way, it is a small death every few months that must be faced…

    1. Natasha Metzler says:

      Thanks for the link!

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