When You Leave Your First Love
I’m going to blame it on Netflix. I shouldn’t really, but I’m going to.
See, things had been slightly stressful. We have some huge changes taking place in our family. My brain was like, mush. And I was super tired.
So one evening when my daughter went to bed and my husband was still working, I turned on Netflix. Which would have been perfectly fine except that I did it the next night and the night after that and well, suddenly it was part of my every-day-routine.
Here’s the truth, it’s not at all about movies. It’s about me.
My soul was tired and instead of going to the source of refreshment, sustenance, and hope– I wore myself out further by giving in to my desires to be entertained.
I was Ephesus.
I was still doing all these good things. I was still holding to truth. I was still following God. But there was something He was holding against me:
you have abandoned the love you had at first. (Rev. 2:4)
It’s fine to watch a movie. It’s fine to relax and not think for an hour or two.
It’s not fine to leave all that is good and then wonder why I can’t breathe under the weight of life. It’s not fine to stop giving my time to God and then demand to know where He is. It’s not fine to abandon my relationship with Jesus and then pretend like I have no idea why my soul is withering.
The beautiful part? In Revelation 2:5 we’re told exactly what to do to fix the issue.
Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent…
Repentance is the key to the Kingdom.
Repentance is the key to eternal life.
Repentance is the spark that brings to life that which is dead.
And through repentance, I can return to the love I had at first.
Thanks Tashey, I will share with you what God is sharing in my life when I see you. Love your post and its right on. God is wanting us to learn “be still and know that I am God”.
We definitely need to find time for a chat! I am often at home with lots of little ones– but I will be sure to stop by next time I’m free!
Oh, ouch. I REALLY needed this today. I’m SO out of touch and drowning in the midst of it. Bless you.
Netflix is extremely addicting! I know this because there are times when I would walk in my house, even during my hour lunch periods from work, and would feel anxious if the TV wasnt on or if I wasnt watching something. It became IMPOSSIBLE to sit still and just “be.” I am still working on that, but this post hits close to home for sure. Thank you for your wise and encouraging words!!! 🙂
Man… if only I could GET THIS in a couple other areas of my life… eearrrg…
Thanks for reminding me of the cure. 🙂